It may have escaped to all of our colonies, carrying the disease everywhere! Even here. –Look, if you knew about this a year ago why didn't you come to me? Wh-Why did you try to block our examination of the ship? We could have helped. –Because I was forbidden! Because we were ordered to remain silent! Our leaders were afraid the people would take the disease as a sign from the gods that we had fallen from grace. They were afraid they would be voted out for attacking the public good. They were afraid. They were afraid of everything.
I realize that I always defined myself in terms of what I wasn't. I wasn't a good soldier like my father. I wasn't the job. I wasn't a good prospect for marriage or kids. Always what I wasn't, never what I was. And when you do that, you miss the moments. And the moments are all we've got. When I thought I was going to die, even after everything that's happened, I realized I didn't want to let go. I was willing to do it all over again, and this time I could appreciate the moments. I can't go back, but I can appreciate what I have right now. And I can define myself by what I am instead of what I'm not. –And what are you? –Alive. Everything else is negotiable.